you just wouldn't appreciate it, won't you?

today is my beloved sis's birthday. i should be very happy cuz inside my heart im thinking i will be celebrating with her. ALTHOUGH..!

night time she's going out ( probably with jon) . alright! jon is her bf. he should be doing that instead, if not i will chop his head off! >< ( inside i was thinking..she's sleeping man!) think of it, nevermind gua. wish her b'day only.. UNEXPECTEDLY!! she scolded me for off her air-cond! ughh.. i cool down my temper and tell her that she shouldn't show me her temper when i wished her happy b'day this morning..i was being how nice for doing that. my gosh! >< anyhow, we are going to celebrate her sweet 19th b'day tomorrow.

since its her b'day.. i decided to " forgive" her yin-ness. lols

haha! this is my dummy sister who always acted stupid..probably all the time! lol
firstly, wei is here to wish you happy birthday! ;)
the moment i was born to this world, i think that it's already fated that both of us will be closely attached for the rest of ours life. i don't know how the future will be, but..as long i've got you as my sister, i will be blissful than ever! you have been studying so hard, and finally you have become more mature than last time. you are one year older by now, and it's one step closer to the age that you are going to lead your own life!

so, all the best in everything you do, babalian! :D

loves,
yinwei.

when you give out your all, you don't ask for all in return.

although you have give out your all , sometimes you can't even ask for a thing in return.
that doesn't only happens to me, but everyone.
this is what we called as 'life'. complicated and yet frustrating..

nevertheless, some people always ask for things in return whenever they sacrifice something..that's irritating. i finally could understand why people speak out that phrase. i realized people wouldn't create a sentence for nothing. they got the phrase it's because, they already experience that by themselves.

probably that's what god determine for us, we don't have fate to become really really close friend for the rest of our life. yes, no doubt that she's a good friend in front of everyone...
i just told her everything in my heart, of course i didn't get to touch some parts, if not that will really hurt her. but guess what? she stay calm, really calm answering my question.. she stays quiet..quiet as i talked to her.

i have not much to say now since my mood is still deep down till nowhere. i feel pathetic for not being able to get what i've give out to a friend. i don't really want to believe it. as cheng yau said, this is life, right?

i'm one step behind..

a BIG BIG thank you to the people who tried to cheer me up when im deep down. i really feel the.. L-O-V-E!

loves,
yinwei.

Wong cheng yau's sweet 16! ;)

sucker's birthday..lol actually last two days, already gave her a damn surprise! ;) thanks to chui for reminding me to give this..lol surprise!! ;)

firstly, we've got nothing. no cake, no these and that. but about 8 something in add maths tuition, i started to ask mei whether got any idea..we came out this brilliant idea: everyone is holding a candle, lights off then we goes by b'day song!

i'm the one who behind the whole thing. plan who's gonna be out for help, who's gonna stay in class to teman cheng yau, so she wouldn't be suspicious. lol ;D i've informed everyone to stand by when my alarm clock rings at 9.20pm. i even sms-ed aunty to ask her to reach teacher's house late a bit! lolss. the guy in ours tuition..i planned to ask him to join but he just refused to look at the sms that i stated there give cheng yau a damn surprise.. gosh! such a non-gentleman guy. >< it goes like this, 9.20pm alarm rings! everyone started to pack things. as if they are going back, but in fact, they go helped out by lighting up the candles. mei was wrapping a few of choc for her.. everything seems to be going on pretty well just that..ahahaha! ppl got panic blahh blah..i just forgotten to ask chui come out and just hold a candle..missed it!

teacher switched off the lights....
cy : teacher! why you off the lights, i can't see a thing! on the lightss.. ( lol :D)
teacher : aiyoo, cheng yau, no electricity leh..( teacher were laughing. we were all prepared.)
cy : but..but, teacher..why the air-cond still functioning wan!? ( we started laughing from outside!)

* DANG DANG!! *

melodi stoned there whereby mei like weii!! faster go in..faster go in! everyone was like hi chengyau.. she just like ehh..why you all holding candles wan?? ohh lol. thina said one, two ( looking around), three.. all of us sing happy b'day song. sadly, we don't have cake. and after that, she start to hug everyone..

after last year i got the surprise from cy they all, i also wanted to give back cy..haha! this kind of surprise, you know? i kena sprank kau kau last year, what give mei a surprise wor..in fact, i'm "involved" and i got water splashing from all of them..that's really funny though xD

sue just broke like hell, no money to buy her present and bake her 16 muffins! (but that's alright, it's so sweet btw!) jye ying gave her a..bag. oh lol! jowinn got her a note book then me..i rushed to ou yesterday night to get her present. chui asked me to share present with mei also cuz they don't have time to go ou and buy..although actually, i don't really want to share instead, but they don't have time..nvm loh.. mom was so pissed off and said friend's b'day only mah...students no need to buy expensive stuff..blahh all just crap man! ><

hope that she always be good. all the best for everything she do..

my sucker, happy birthday again! =)

loves,

yinwei.

blahh..

* 13th july 2008.

i have been emo since yesterday. it's kind of rare for me to emo for so long.. but just the cause of that whole emo-ness already can suck out all my happiness.

i know, i'm very quiet in person, especially when i'm not even close with that person. sometimes, i think of how many true friend i had. some ppl that you really take them as friend, you expect them to do the same, but the truth is..they don't. how sad that was.. :( anyways, i think i just don't have the skills to talk to certain ppl. and plus, my english is no good. i hope, someday..i will get more friends eventually ;)

yesterday was cheer 08' , i saw lots of girls that dressed up sexy, bitchy with high heel material girls. some of them show off their long, beautiful legs. i saw some flawless legs ( long, no-no-muscle legs) ..wooahh! ;) lol some just..got scars..aiyaa.. my legs also got scars lah.
[ oh gosh! i really had a big thing with beautiful legs these days! les-nya] * damn random!

i realized that i crapped a lot in blog. hehe..whatever that is! btw, blitzerz didn't win anything..not even the showmanship award that we already got it for like 3 years :( for me, i think that blitzerz did better this year compared to last year, but sadly, we've got nothing. hope next year, we will get back the bu4 spirit!

somehow, this year our bu4 blue crowd..not so geng anymore. probably because we've lost puan lee tsock wah's support for blitzerz for like so many years.

* 16th july 2008.

hallo! mom went to somewhere in india. so, my lunch and dinner got probs! :( lolss
i had my lunch at outside with aunty mei ling they all for like 3 days already, sometimes really sien for what i had ate.

my life is just like a timetable, it wouldn't change. just everyday tuition come and go..go and come..these days, i was thinking how my life will be when i will be started working.. will i enjoy my work in the big company? will i be an good partner with others that will be working with me for a project? but that's really far away. i will think about it some other time..

i'm really really tired..sometimes i can't feel what adult meant energy. we don't have so much energy and youth that you all have been talking for like ages. we are only 16, and still a human being, we will feel tired somehow. ><

i only realised i loved classical musics since last year. especially impromptu fantasie by chopin', romance d'amour, ballade pour adeline...and much moreee ;)

my mood wasn't so bad today, but just normal..pretty okay!

loves,
yinwei.

Learning of life..

today, met the sami ( not really sami lah!) that used to do all the praying stuff for dad's funeral. we had lunch in chatterbox together, and he have been telling my mom how great brother's personalities was. he said, harvard college did this survey for 10 years, they found out what it takes to make someone who is successful in the future: has the ability to communicate well with others would be the first thing. but to think about it, yeah, people who can use their mind and mouth both to get money is already successful, you don't have to be really smart ( like tan ju-an that kind). yup!

he taught me that communicate with people is really important, someone who always reject to hang out with friends, stay in the house for nothing. in the future, they wouldn't be someone who is successful but just a normal employee in company. the person who' head of the group, there will sure be some guts lah for someone like that. quickly i think about lim yan yun. look, she can communicate with others, studies also pretty good, love life..ahaha! of course boleh lah! tak ada sebarang masalah pun. she's nearly perfect, just that her mom a little strict..every company, there will be a lot of politics going on. without good communication with the heads of every department..you know it! just like trixxon.. =.='

* edited post!

night time, kor, mom and me even went dinner in pappa kopitiam in klang. walao..damn far away man! at first, i got this feeling i don't want to walk in, cuz the pappa in KD..the way mom described it really cha wei! wah, but no wor. lots of ppl eating. then food comes, not bad..not bad.. ;)

suddenly, somehow the topic that kor went casino was bring up..after having a lot of talksss..kor just went mad and started to voice out his opinions. i just remains silence. i think i'm just not right to scold or say anything in the public to kor. plus, mom's face turns..embarrased.

i'm just thinking that kor's reaction is too much. he just kinda of voice up..and just like going against aucle and mom. i don't understand..sometimes why kor like that. make everyone feel awkward for the moment. aucle told us a lot of different things in life, really enknowledge you in life. i think that's what life is all about : keep on learning..until you're old, even until the day you die..probably that's just what we are living for so long..
impressed

randomly, found out this book: twilight. a love story about a vampire who can live on forever fall in love with an ordinary girl. both of them definately come from a different world, but edward cullen was impressed by bella swan. soon, bella found out that he's vampire and she thought that edward drink human's blood but instead he choose to drink animal's blood. bella was relieved. edward have been forcing himself not to kill bella...

story sounds really interesting..but don't know end of the year how the movie comes out.. anyways, i'm so gonna watch it man! ;D

this sami reminds me of mr. ravi who's also a good story teller. i really kind of impressed by these people who can make people to listen to them. the way they tell you every single topic really makes you believe and wanna know more about it. this is a type of ability that they owned themselves.. i wish i will get this kind of ability someday too! :D

learnt lots of things.. ;)

xoxo,
yinwei.

* evil laughs * ;)

haha..yesterday..erm..was kinda happy ;) went kl and got injection for hepatitis A( suppose to have A and B both, not so painful mah! ) tak tau pun, dr. " mangkali" singh tak order pun.. ><''

aiya..then we went [ hong kong shopping complex] to get yin's spects. suddenly mom wanted to do her hair for like..2 hours?! me and kor decided went the street whereby the ppl sell all the cheap cheap electronic stuff! its hard to imagine the ppl there have to sell all this stuff like battery, hp, some 'pariah' things under a HOT HOT HOT sun! me and kor just went there for a walk also come out sweating like a cow man! sizzzlingggg hot!

i saw lots of fishy fishy too! ;) i want to fei po fishy so badly..they're SOOOO cute! all fat fat ones..
after walked for like one hour, we got back to the salon and mom wasn't done yet..i cut my hair..before i chop it off, i'm sure sue ann will be shocked tomorrow! but of course i cut it lah since its like unbalanced! ishh..

now my hair got even worse still, but i know, everytime right after i cut my hair memang cannot go out 1. tak boleh tengok lah ppl!

so have a nice days peeps! ;)

xoxo,
yinwei.

Everyday is getting boring..

today, yin and kor want to go curve. i just feel totally left out, since i had only--- maggi mee. and having it alone. i think in one's life, that could have be the worst thing when you're not with your family. sometimes i can feel that im floating in heaven with family, but there is time where i feel i'm in hell man! i know, life couldn't perfect, you may also expect some terrible things happen in your life.

by now, i can understand the ppl who actually experienced worst thing in their life and saying that: you must cherish everyone single one who's around you. last time, when daddy passed away, i feel nothing at all. i'm probably too little to know all these but now, i regretted for always not spending quality time with him.. ;(
his caring for me.. i can't ask for more now..since he's gone to heaven..

for the ppl out there, who's having a fight with family, come to think about it, pls just ignore who's wrong and right. fight with family isn't what will brings happiness to a family. somehow, you will tends to regret after something bad happen..the last time you all fight might be the last time you see them.

the world is going round and round everyday, no family can live peace without a fight. at the same time, people really changed. you have to deal with it and choose not to run from it.

haha..after had the emotional time today, kor cheered up my life and make me feel so much better..i laughed out so loud in the car just now..with garfield and kor.. both of them hahah!! make a great couple ;) oh god, gay-ness...

let's continue someday..

X)

loves,
yinwei.