i will survive!

it's the


BOOOM

BOOOM


holidays!

my dog is the sweetest, cutest creature ever existed.

im cold blooded.
and how could you not learn from past mistakes. from someone truly important.
yes so great that i have reached your disappointment.

im almost with none compassion in me.
omg that was almost not imaginable.

one who no sympathy.
with no love in life.

life is a maze.
love is a riddle.

heeee +)

easy breezy.

when people run in circles
it's a very very mad world

i find it kind of funny
i find it kind of sad

- mad world by adam lambert.

holidays! holidays! holidays! =)

mother's day celebration;

chocky boy's pictures;

he used to be so tiny. and i forgotten how tiny he really were. now i know!
aiyo now i can't even carry him around with one hand.

black and white;

new books ` `

thank you for the book, nur =)

i am unwritten

can't read my mind
i am undefined

i'm just beginning
the pen's in my hand
ending unplanned

staring at the blank page before you
open up the dirty window
let the sun illuminate the words
that you could not find

reaching for something in the distance
so close you can almost taste it
release your inhibitions
feel the rain on your skin

no one else can feel it for you
only you can let it in
no one else, no one else
can speak the words on your lips

drench yourself in words unspoken
live your life with arms wide open
today is where your book begins
the rest is still unwritten

i break tradition
sometimes my tries
are out of lines

we've been conditoned
to not make mistakes
oh but i can't live that way, no

the rest is still unwritten.


- unwritten by natasha bedingfield.

happy holidays people!

:)


loves.

standing in the light of your halo.

it is unwritten.

the winner of american idol 2009 is

kris allen

DOOOOOOOM. that's it.

my heart drops.
but two of them deserves to be on that stage to performed.

adam's sexual orientation speculations might have caused a slight negative waves on votes.
who knows?

no matter how you slice it, they are going to have bright singing career.

especially the 16 years old girl: allison.

i was pretty excited about the finale song.
but then.. not my flavour.

he looked like a rockstar pls

exams that hits me really hard this time is finally coming to an end.

you will get what you deserves.
and if i were to fail, i will.

again.

it's not like i have never been through this,
but hopefully disappointment can turn into the force that keep on pushing me forward.

after holidays, time is going to fly.


be aware that something big coming after us!


you can decide your own future.

you either can be no one or someone.


it's your call.


you can't depend on anyone for that.

be not afraid to love.

at the moment, it feels like nothing really matters to me.
exams? future? friends?

no.

im no longer attach to things that i used to.
im no longer the same old person i am.
i gets annoyed by certain people easily.

i find myself unpredictable these days.

it feels odd.


but there's nothing i can do to make a change on that.

i want to be me, myself and i.


and seriously, what's wrong with me?

be original.

skies are dark, it's time for rain
final call, you board the train
heading for tomorrow
i waved goodbye to yesterday
wipe the tears you hide your face
blinded by the sorrow

how could i smiling like before
when baby you don't love me anymore

say it isn't so
tell me you're not leaving
say you've change your mind now
and im only dreaming

this is not goodbye
this is starting over
if you wanna know
i don't wanna let go

so say it isn't so

ten to five at least we have tried
we're still alive but hope just died
as they close the door behind you
shake the ground beneath the wheel
as i wish i never found you

miles and miles to go before i can say
before i can lay my love on you before you sleep

i got miles and miles to go
before anyone will hear

my laugh again


say is isn't so by gareth gates.

a stupid mistake.

dance with my father.

back then when i was a child
before life removed all the innocence
my father would lift me high
and dance with my mother and me and then
spin me around till i fall asleep
then up the stairs he would carry me
and i knew for sure
i was loved.

if i could get another chance
another walk, another dance with him
i play a song that will never end
how i'd love, love, love to dance with my father again.

when I and my mother would disagree
to get my way I would run from her to him
he'd make me laugh just to comfort me, yeah, yeah
then finally make me do just what my mama said

later that night when I was asleep
he left a dollar under my sheet
never dreamed that he
would be gone from me

if I could steal one final glance
one final step, one final dance with him
i'd play a song that would never, ever end
'cause I'd love, love, love to dance with my father again

sometimes I'd listen outside her door
and I'd hear her, mama cryin' for him
i pray for her even more than me
i pray for her even more than me

i know I'm prayin' for much too much
but could You send back the only man she loved
i know You don't do it usually
but Lord, she's dyin' to dance with my father again
every night I fall asleep
and this is all I ever dream

- by luther vandross-


omg. life's been busy. and i almost forgot the existence of such a beautiful song.
so touching!

anyway, exam's over! finally.
i got 70 for chemistry. considered quite low in the class..
but who cares? i did my best.
PLUS, it's a last minute pick up thing.
i know this is not my best. im satisfied!

by the way, monthly test throughout the year couldn't be that bad.
i mean, you will get a better understanding after you study.
it's like a kind of satisfaction is achieved somehow.

i once promised myself i will push myself harder.
i will work hard for my studies, for my future.
that was last year.. i gotta wake up!
and get down to serious business.

OH and happy birthday sue ann!







may you bless with the best of luck in everything you do.
im sure you can accomplish what you really want.
if only you believe in yourself.
be confident!

always remember to smile :)
if wasn't you, i won't know nor realised what's behind me all this while.
i still want to say thank you.


HAHA! that was the old me back then.
if it's not for you, i wouldn't post it up woi.
i looked fat! lol

we will take new picture together okay?
replace the old ones :)


ahh another person said i changed again.
it's not a bad thing right? you are so proud of me!

ohh i've been travelling on this road too long,
just trying to find my way back home.
the old me is dead and gone, dead and gone.


loves,
yinwei.

so i did it, again.

did i? nah.

oh i realised that ppl linked me in their blog without telling me. make me feel so surprised when i review their blog and wondering eh? there's a lot of girl named yin wei too? X)

just find it quite cute.

recently ppl around me can never stop talking about the incident chris brown assaulted rihanna..

while rihanna is suffered from visible injuries on face, CB was booked in los angelas on changes stemming from alleged assault on her. CB has terrible experience by seeing her mom was beaten by her bf. so there's tendency that he would commit such a crime right?

ah, rihanna and CB even pulled off the grammy's award. they didn't get to perform too :(

i always prefer watching a music's award compared to a movie's award.
have you ever watch those hong kong's golden horse award? omg! * boredom`
okay lah, musics is often the one attracts more attention from ppl.

im currently searching for CB's old songs. and i found gimme that, wall to wall, RUN IT!
gosh. i remembered my sister used to put run it as ringtone as my mom calls. lol
and of course say goodbye which is one of sue ann's favourite song!

nowadays economic is definitely a continuous struggle for the entire world.
btw, my house got cnn, abc...news channel now.
i get to know more by then and not from the internet! :)

speaking of the war between israel and palestine.. why wanna have war? to show how powerful your country really are? to prove the world you can stop the terroism in gaza?
wait, you don't need to cut off food and water supply too.
they are human, just like us. screwed


random;

i thought this guy never serious. even for charity.. but he does.
i remembered i asked him details about sponsor child before cny.
and after cny he told me he saw ads on tv but didn't get to copy down no. and i said ok.
THEN, he hand me newspaper about world vision the other day.

i didn't thought he would remember such a small thing. as in im not that close to him also.
really kind of him.

well ppl changed. just perhaps im the one who's still hanging around.
i should have use my time fruitfully last year, but i didn't.

another unforgettable regret in my life.

loves,
yinwei.

quack quack.

BUGGAAH! first week of school ended, like finally.

i have been to siantan, anggerik, teratai for the passed 4 years and now daisi. i kinda like my class somehow. it's special, a blend of most anggerik, certain ppl from daisi, teratai and matahari. lol

and i don't think i love school that much like before. from love to hatred. an easy process. i already get used seeing those form 5 faces, the gang spirit of them and the crowd of juniors. i think a lot of parents transferred their kids out of the school. it's definitely not my very own illusions right?

form 5. form 5. still hard to believe that we are seniors! something unbelievable happened: i joined hoki! oh well, no choice. badminton was all full according to a girl and so i passed my form to a small indian guy who hold on a board with a word " HOKI". quackk!

cik rohini:" just a bbbbliii-ink of eye, a BBBLII-NK! of eye."

HAHAHA! she probably repeat every sentence a thousand times. funny! =)

i didn't know she's still a cik.. until yesterday! aha bear with it, my blur case.

i got good teachers for sejarah, chemistry, biology, a. mathematics, chinese.. woohoo! =) of course there's still some out of expectation. nothing is perfect, yes? im in good hands anyway! :D

by the way, i don't plan to cut down my entertainment time. but i have no other options, for the time being.. it's not that i want to cut down or not, my time is occupied by tuitions also. it's gonna be a struggle, for sure. i hope i can still have a well balance life. there's a lot of work to be done. a lot of different things to be figure out this year. my interest as example... aha!

oh well, keep a positive outlook for spm. it will be alright! hmph, only if you work hard.

add a what if when you think of things around you, you will feel better. instead of thinking negative all along, i think that's much better, isn't it?

loves,
yinwei.

first day of school.

first post this year. BUT 5th day of new year man. haha!

nah. i lazy to update. and im thinking that i might not blog that often like last year. haha. alright i don't blog that often too. but will cut down a little.

i packed my school bag in the morning and headed to school. school finally started after one and a half month of holidays. first year of me being in daisi. where all the people goes ah? why i got this illusion that our school got lesser students compared to last year. for me being in what class doesn't matters, what matters is yourself. if you work hard, can you ensure me with bad results? guess not. time really flies, tick-tock tick-tock and im form 5 now. gosh, can't believe it.

oh this year i wouldn't put those blame on teacher in school if i get bad results . im thinking that i shouldn't because we study for ourselves, not for teachers nor anyone. " ya lah, teacher don't teach properly in school." despite of that sentence, most of the students in school go for tonnes of tuition outside the school. im trying get rid of the fees, and it's a lot! ugh. my mom is spending hundreds just for my tuition fees. ah..

puan lee showed us some 2008 spm paper the so called simple questions. no one knows about anything in details until teacher pecah it. yes that's my class. and im one of the student in that class. no one opens the book in holidays? aha, i doubted that. thou that happened to me. and i always came by to this situation when i planned to study: nothing works out. nothing at all. so don't plan it better still, right? waste time to plan somemore.

it's gonna be tough this year. in pmr, we work hard for parents. we make them proud. getting as much A's as we can you see. this year is different, we need to get our butt to books. or i should say it is a must! because it will determine whether we will have a bright future or not. when we were a kid, don't we used to think about future? we thought of our looks, circle of friends, relationship and lots more. now the future is ought to come, but im started to fear of something. something i never know by now. or it's just that i don't want to know deep down. hmm..

bio, chem, add maths teacher is ALL pretty good. there's nothing that i could ask for more. and guess who's the form teacher.. :/

* drum rolls*

tada! cik rohini.

( yes, she's funny :D)

heh what's the point of blogging. im started to losing it by the way.

good luck to everyone! =)

loves,
yinwei.

say hi to 2009!

a new year has come. 2009 is bound to come. this remarks the time to let go of the sorrows, blues, hatred, awful, confused moment i had this year. i will let those stupid emotions overflow me. if our life is a turning clock, you wish you could turn back time? it never happens. only if miracles appear. aha ``

lost and found.

after all, that could be awarded as the best words to describe my life this year. i have lost my determination for studies. or maybe it's the passion that has long gone.. stepping into form 4 brought a definite change in me. the me who always wonder about life still alive. never dies. i promised never! of course i will try my best to learn about anything as long as i could and as much as possible. it's the process that points every differences. i wouldn't want to change who i am at this point. i really don't.. maybe now is not the time you see.

for the things that i have lost, i would give it a smile. i will use my both hands to welcome the new things. i really wish i could build strong base to own a successful career. what you reap is what you sow, that's what i believed in. i have got quite alot of dreams. big dreams i mean. honestly, i would give my sincere hands to those who needs help. like those in afrika.. well, we should not decide to help or not to based on religion, race nor skin. mind yourself.

2008 was undeniable as one of the marvelous year. from olympics in china, wenchuan's earthquake, america's democracy, crumpled dollars and yen, malaysia's soil erosion case and much more.. alot have been happening, i don't get to catch it all. ah anyhow, there's so much to learn from all this news. when you be aware of events that happened to surroundings, you will gain alot at the same time.

* a reminder to car passeger: remember to bucker up your seatbelt! $300 will be fine to those who did not under a circumstances: aged 17 and above. and we are 17 in two hours time man! gosh.

thank you to those who involved in my life. love love.

got this from yin:

life is too short to wake up with regrets,
so love the people who treats you right,
and forget the ones who don't.

and she's right.

have a awesome new year everyone! X)


loves,
yinwei.